Vague Lights
By Donnalyn Xu
without the rain i undress the night myself
like the skin of bruised fruit i can’t help but
push. there is no riot of thunder slick & heavy
under the tongue, no flood to cleanse the sin
i wear as if it is only a layer of blush
on my cheeks, the colour of roses. the colour
of august & my quiet undoing. on the train
ride home, it felt good to admit i was lonely.
to look out the window & see vague lights
floating around each other beneath the faint
glow of broken street lamps just light dancing
with more light, orbiting the same circle,
taunting me with bright mouths. the world
goes on touching everything except this strange
body of mine. sick with longing, i undress
the night the way a lover would. the way
an ampersand curls into itself – arms always
seeking, nothing waiting on either side.